The Struggles of Writing. My Personal Thoughts

Many of the authors I have read on the subject of writing say the same thing that I say now in my own words, “Writing is the torrid wrath of an internal voice soothing me from just under my skin.”  I cannot begin to explain just how annoying yet at the same time consoling my internal muse has become over the years.  She was born several years ago when I was very young and then slept quietly as external influences silenced her growth. 

Temporarily. 



Those external distractions including my own youthful exploration of friends, boys, hobbies, love, school, fear, children, work and family were then replaced with this unrelenting voice within continually telling me to: “describe the woman seated across from you, tell me what you see in the couple on the bench, what are the eyes of that child there telling you, "how do you write your life?”  Every day, each moment from the time I wake to the moment I close my eyes, she speaks to me.

Continually.  



Contemplative thought.  I read. I think a lot.  I think about writing every day.  I work, struggle and fight to put those words on paper in any shape or form.  I will some day explain to a crowd of at least 3 during my book tour how my path to publication began with thinking long and hard about writing, how I studied the works of others, some well known, some just starting and took from each a lesson.  Finally, I set forth, forged ahead on my own path to tell a story, a story worth telling, a story designed to move a person. 

Eventually.   


5 comments:

khashway said...

I'm following you now from She Writes. I love when my muse won't get out of my head. I need her--um, him? My MC is a boy, so maybe my muse is male. Hmm...

Fi said...

Found you via SW. I hear you. My muse continually joins me in the most imappropriate places. I rarely get a shower in peace.

BECKY said...

I particularly liked your line: "I think about writing every day." Oh yeah...about a thousand times a day! In one of my blog posts a while back I wrote how I think sometimes, "what in the world did I used to think about or do with my time, before I started to write?!" (which was only 10 years ago...and I'm pretty old! :o

Adrian said...

Thanks All!! I have been so bizzy at work I have not had time to thank you all for the comments! Thinking about writing every day.. yes.. that is how it is sometimes. Getting it all on paper, now there is the skill!

Marina said...

Adrian, thanks for visiting my site yesterday and for commenting. I feel the same way -- I think about writing every day -- even if I don't get to write. It's always on my mind -- even at 3 in the am. And I love you OUTdoors INspiration post. You create such a peaceful image of your backyard, I want to take a nap there. My backyard is full of ticks and mosquitoes. Following, fellow SheWriter.

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I figured things out late in life, like what I wanted to do, getting married (age 30), having kids, (36 and 38) and changing degrees about 3 times. Now as a cop of 19 years and in my mid 40's, I am finally figuring out some things. My first career or dream of becoming a writer is playing more in my head and daily life than ever. I love it. Thus the blog. It is all mine. I also love being a mother. They are all ours. I love my husband and as a cop, wow.. have I seen some things. Street degree. I got it. Let us learn together. I also am on She Writes.